seasons

i like change.

i've been thinking lately that change is a blessing.

it breathes life into the everyday.

seasons of life~ i'm thankful for them.

for a few reasons.

1. it reminds me to embrace the 'now'. it won't be here again.

2. it helps me realize i can't do everything all the time. there's a time and a season for everything, right?

right now mine happens to be young children, and all that comes with them.

3. i love the seasons~ summer, fall, spring, winter.

two weeks before school started i resisted

the turning of a new leaf. (pic found here) i'd be losing my kids to public school. and a schedule was on it's way. no more lazy summer days, swimming, reading marathons, home 'movie theater', camping trips, and popsicles. then, 2 days before school began, i started to feel new life breathed into me and i felt it was time for me and the kids to turn this new page. i craved structure. i felt ready and happy. and thankful for change.

the kids were excited to meet teachers, see friends, have recess, and bailey was excited to wear her new clothes. adam even got school supplies since he starts joy school tomorrow.

i'm feeling sad that my baby is not a baby.

i'm missing his rounder cheeks,

his smaller frame that fit perfectly in my lap after a bath.

his baby babbling and all the snuggling.

i have to remember it's given way to

*more meaningful conversations.

*a growing relationship

*songs he makes up like, "my momma loves me, my momma loves me" while he smiles up at me.

*a capable little guy who's ready to read and learn.

and grow.

i guess there is a little bit of mourning inside me as this season changes. i have to remind myself not to mourn so much that i miss what's good about it, what i'll never get back.

just breathe.
and repeat, 'i like change, i'm thankful for seasons'.